Smile, It's Free!

Mitchi is a girl who is still on the look out for stones to fill up her happy wagon. Maybe you can lend her some. Mitchi loves tea, heartfelt talks, long walks, taking pictures, hoarding books,anime marathon and sub-titled films. She has an extreme taste with music. She loves to meditate and she enjoys "me time". She believes that there's a world of difference between being alone and lonely. She used to do cosplay but for some reasons she gave it up. Currently, she's into analogue and lo-fi photography. She wants to learn Spanish but she just know some of the practical phrases. She might study again soon. She's a Nurse by license and in not-so-far away future she wants to be a translator or a teacher but somehow she's stuck with a nocturnal job. Maybe you can shed some light on that grayed-area part of her life. She believes and loves God. Welcome! (No photo manipulation with film photos except cropping some faulty scanned shots.) tumblr hit counter
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Yep I did it. After all the hate I have for that app/social media I joined because of the BDJ Revlon make up tutorial. Hopefully I win the raffle. And for shameless plugging my user id is mitchiwashere lolz 

Happy 7th birthday Gabby!!! 

Cupcake Haven

Oly Xa 2 x Agfa Vista 400

(Because I’m starving and it’s a Good Friday) 

ho ho ho 

Good Friday Food Daydream 

Oly Xa 2 x Agfa Vista 400

(Blurred photos anyway have a meaningful and blessed long weekend!!!) 

Sleeve Tattoos 

Toy Camera x DNP Centuria 400

( Strangers in Makati, we’re working double pay later because it’s Holiday. )

This is what I receive in the mail. Thanks @miss-see-me  :)) 

Lately, I realized that I gave up wanting too much. Or maybe I’m not the kind of the person who want things desperate enough. Funny thing is I gave up when I’m close to achieving my desires. I wonder if it is the fear of being successful or the fear that I I don’t know what will happen next. I’ve been drifting too much. I’m scattered. I wish I can focus more just like before. I want to be a woman of passion but I think I’m too lazy for that. I have to learn again how to meditate. I’m good at that I guess. I just need to empty myself and put things in order. And lastly I should stop hating myself. I’m just too angry at everything maybe it’s a reflection of how I hate what I’ve become or what I have not become. 

That Woman

Oly XA 2 x Agfa Vista 400

Walking from work to home

Bell and Howell x Agfa Precisa 100

(I’m literally doing that as part and parcel of my anti-sedentary lifestyle regimen. I really hope that I’ll make it this time. )

Gray areas in Time Zone

( I never enjoyed arcade except air hockey. Such a kill joy )

Oly XA 2 x Kodak BW400CN

This is a long list. Oh well maybe not. I just want to keep track of things that happened to me so that I will be more grateful. :)

(This is based on my Belle De Jour Power Planner)

January

01: New Year’s day and we’re just having family lunch and then my mother suddenly felt ill. She was groggy and then she became restless. Being a medically-inclined member of the family I was still panicky. She refused to be brought to the hospital but my relatives came over and then we then we rushed her to ER. Her blood sugar and blood pressure skyrocketed but that was just a result of some infection. They did a lot of work-up on her ( 10 extractions and 1 angiogram), I was so scared to see how fragile she can be. Good thing the angiogram was normal. No clogged vessels or whatsoever. After four days we’re out of the hospital. Thank Heavens I have insurance and she’s under my wing.

14-16: I’m three days absent because of sore throat. First occurrence of the year and I’m actually thinking of getting rid of my tonsils.

25: Santi and I went to B-side for Papa Dom’s tribute and then we headed to Grace office just to hang out. It was one of the coolest office I’ve ever been to. Unlimited drinks and non-employee can hang out. It was just super fun.

February

01: We had a small post Chinese New Year party slash home blessing because my office mate Athan has a new place.I love gourmet home cooking. After that we watched Rak of Aegis play. VIP House tickets courtesy of Fringemag. Perks of being a media partner and having a friend who has connections. lolz I wish I can write reviews more but I’m too lazy for that.

07: Dampa- Team J’ breakfast

15: LoveNot- I went with my friends and it was the first time they met my lover. lelz It was awkward but the interactive play was just so out-of the-box and a memorable experience that I let of go whatever mixed emotions that I have that night. It was nice to be true and hell yeah nobody ever judged.

22: It’s my first time in BGC. hahaha We watched Sana Dati at Fully Booked. I spent three hours from Manila to Makati to McKinley. I really hate Makati.

23-24: It’s been a while since I had shoot with my friends.We booked an overnight stay at one of the condotels in Pasay. It was more of a girl night out plus makeup tutorial rather than a shoot. We hope to do this more often.

March

09: I met milovers friends. Well, I feel really awkawrd but they were nice so yeah we hang out and drive.

09-17: Spent my days binge-watching Breaking Bad. Five years worth of series and I finished it in just 1 1/2 week. After that I questioned a lot of things and became really depressed.

14: Milover was rushed to the ER. This was the fifth confinement ever since we became an item. It was just frustrating that we strive so much to work but are health was depreciating. Graveyard shift is really hazardous to oneself. We need to put much effort to be healthy because there’s no choice left unless we like to suffer. But are attempts fell short.

23: Grace came to aid and we talked about the feels and all that shizz. Actually the free meal cured me. lolz

28: Gaddiel was born. My brother’s baby. I have a new nephew and he’s the next adorable thing I laid my eyes on next to Gabriel about almost 7 years ago.

29: SNR pizza pigged out then I met up with a nice blogger who sold her fisheye2 camera to me. 

31: Tomorrow is my Silver Birthday. Yeah April Fools! I’m hoping for the best. I know things would be better for my family and my career. 

So I’ll be turning 25 years old this April 1st and it makes me crazy day by day. I know it’s just another day but hell I’m a quarter of a century already. I still don’t know what is my one great thing. But I have a vague idea of it. The only thing that hinders me or separate me from achieving that life goal is because I procrastinate. Grrrr I must be persistent and desperate because that’s the only way I know to be successful.

Lately I’m trying to get in touch with some close friends because I’ve been revolving my life with my lover. They say when you fall in love you lose a friend or two. I lost my community. I left. Making my lover my world is so unhealthy. It’s not really a good thing at all. It consumes me to the point that I feel that I’m hazardous to myself. I’m becoming self-absorbed and one helluva selfish bitch. Seriously. I never imagined myself to be like that and I feel guilty at all because that’s not me. That’s not what I’m aware of. Perhaps I did change along the way but I should do some counter actions. At work I curse a lot and I’m so angry. If you have known me before I am very patient and people like to share their secrets because I’m a good listener and they just trust me (that’s according to them). And they still do but nowadays I feel like I cannot genuinely listen to their rants because I’m too disturb and at the back of my mind I want to scream and tell them to listen to me just for once. 

I need to relax but sometimes I succumb too much to these emotions. I don’t go out and just wallow on my feelings. I really wish to be okay soon. 

Little did she know,

She had been living a sheltered life

That innocence was just a myth

Or a make-believe

Little did he know,

He can never totally own her

That was just a play pretend

Or a lure of some sorts

Little did they know,

Behind those button eyes

  and half-baked smile

It was an ignorant attempt

Nobody really needs to be saved. 

Somewhat teaser for our upcoming collab and new tumblr site. Hope we don’t lose interest. 

Open 24 hours - Strangers at 711

Oly XA 2 Kodak BW400CN

Happy Birthday to one of my “bestest” friend in the world. I know you have so much talent and you have a long way to go. I pray that you find that “one thing” soon. Cheers to growing up but staying young at heart. May you be one step closer to your dreams and heart desires. 

Happy Birthday to one of my “bestest” friend in the world. I know you have so much talent and you have a long way to go. I pray that you find that “one thing” soon. Cheers to growing up but staying young at heart. May you be one step closer to your dreams and heart desires.