It was hard to admit how clumsy and stupid I was last time regarding online shopping. I should have known better. To remember this event I will just write the things that I could have bought with the money I’ve lost. This was a self-penance act of sort. Sometimes I bully myself.
(Photos below from Google IMAGES)
My old running shoes are still okay but it is wearing out already. It was not because I run on a daily basis but because I keep it inside the locker too often. Blame the weather and my lazy ass. A nice shoes will inspire me perhaps.
More more more Make up
No explanation needed. Girl thing.
I could have bought book collection instead. I have so many books that I want to buy. But I am kind of relying on ebooks these days. But nothing beats the real deal.
SLR or RF Camera
Maybe instax is not really for me. I should have bought this instead. Grrr
Cinemalaya Festival Pass
I have been dreaming of a festival pass for this event too save time lining up. I wish I am still a student to enjoy the perks of a discounted price.
That’s all I can think for now. I will be careful next time. I will not give up on film photography because of this. I will move forward.
Lastly, here are the details of my scammer.
Seller’s Name: Bryan Paul P. Avelino/Frederick Avelino, Address: 86 Leveriza St., Malate, Manila or 876 Acacia St Malabon City RCBC Account #: 4215850024183726, 5818160002176496 PS Bank Acct: 212111007889
(And again this was based on my Belle De Jour Power Planner)
01: 25TH BIRTHDAY. I am now a silver baby. No fancy party or whatnot just dinner with the family. I am just so grateful for having wonderful people around me.
04: I lost my wallet. I’m just that clumsy.
05: I walked from home after night shift duty. That’s my exercise. MOA Pasay to Malate. I do this 3 to 4 times a week.
06: I finally finished Elementary Season 1
08: I applied againd for Spanish at Tesda for 2nd time around. They have long list of applicants. :(
13: Hot Air Balloon Festival with Sabs and Santi. It was short trip but fun.
14-20: Mi amore was confined again because of Asthma. It’s a crazy holy week. After work I stayed at hospital and skip my exercise routine. I was just so drained. After discharge at the hospital I spent quality time with “le family”. They just love me I guess.
21: 7th Birthday of Gabby. No fancy birthday party because of the the newborn baby.
22-24: Absent because of vertigo. Sabs accompanied me at Healthway for checkup but we still had time for makeup shopping.
25: I went to Makati Med for “real” check up. Diagnosis: I am pre-diabetic. My PCOS is getting worse and I have myoma. That explains my sudden bouts of pain. It was so depressing. I still manage to go to work that night.
26: It was our 26th month together. I just got home from work and then suddenly our neighborhood was on fire. I was so shocked and I am in panic mode. I screamed and cried. The fire did not reach our house but 12 houses were burned. I can’t sleep that night. Is it post-traumatic syndrome?
30: I was in so much pain again.
01: I rushed myself to ER. I thought it was appendicitis but it was just a gyne case.
03: Digiprint delivery. It made me happy. I wish I can shoot more but I am too sick.
04: Movie Marathon
05: Applied for unified id of SSS.
07: A friend of mine visited me before she left again to work in Saudi. Thank God I made a decision not to be a nurse anymore.
12: Post Mother’s Celebration. I love my mom so much.
15: We celebrated an officemate’s birthay at SNR. The best cheese pizza ever.
16: I detox by drinking infused lemon water. I realize that I am a better person because I choose my battles. I know when to give up and fight.
18: Mi amore’s advance birthday party. After 7 years I had a taste of Red Horse beer again. I am not a beer person. I prefer soju, tequila or vodka but I rarely drink.
23: I was sent home after four hours of working. I rushed again to ER. This time it was gastroenteritis. Then milover rushed to accompany me. And their house was robbed. I felt guilty but I know it’s not my fault.
28: There was too much oppression and office politics at work. I don’t know how to fight anymore. My officemate friends were struggling. I think all my sickness boils down to my hazardous work.
02: Man from the Stars. I love this kind of kilig. I felt like a teenager.
06: I lost 6 kilos in a month. It was an achievement. I hope that this is the beginning of a new me. I am finally getting better and healthier.
08: Taco Sunday with milove. I thank the universe that we met and stayed together even though it was a harsh and complicated world.
15: French Film Festival was sold out. Thank heavens for the intarwebss. I downloaded Mood Indigo instead. My two favorite films are Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and Amelie. A movie with Gondry and Audrey Tatou makes my heart skipped a beat. It was magical.
18: I was scammed. I was so stupid and careless. I bought instax online and lo and behold it never came. I reported it to olx.ph. They can only do so much. I just have to give up and move on and of course be wiser next time. Someone bashed me because I should just give up analogue and shift to digital. No offense but that was so out of line. We need to respect each others hobbies.
22: Gaddiel’s Christening. It was nice to spend time with family and relatives. After that I went to a mini reunion with my Accelerated Class in Elementary. After 14 years we met but it felt like yesterday. Time flies and I feel like I have not changed that much.
23: I bled too much after 10 months. It was too painful to bear. I read that red wine has analgesic effects. It was helpful but not that much. I tried Green books because of the hype. It was okay.
29: Shopping and quality time with Mother. We don’t do this often because I have lame excuses but I know she likes it. I wish I can spend more time with her.
30: Off to meet mi amore. I’m excited for July. A lot of events. Life is a series of film festivals. I hope I have time and healthy body to shoot again too.
It was not that eventful second quarter. I was always depressed and sick. Hopefully it will be better.
I gave up my out of this world snobbish side and join the bandwagon just because this is a YA book. I appreciate YA’s. I dropped my prejudice of Green after reading Looking for Alaska last week. I finished TFIOS this morning in one sitting (4hrs maybe) as I type this I wonder why my eyes did not well up. Am I cold hearted bitch? It was “okay”. I like it and I think that’s good enough. I just have read more tearjerkers book perhaps. But I will never ever try vampire books or the erotica books that have swoon people. I’ll stick with YA.
I am extra sad because I remember each Father’s day that I spent without you. The only Father’s day that I clearly remember was your funeral. I am crying for God knows when. I don’t want to go out today because I would be bitter seeing happy families inside the church or mall. I ate ice cream even though I’m trying my best to avoid it because I’m cutting off lactose in my diet yet I still feel pained. I skipped visiting your grave for lame excuses but the actual and most stupid reason is that you never visit me in my dreams. You always did that to mama. I wonder why. Forget logic and reasoning but I really want to see you. I wonder if you are in favor of my decisions. I wonder if you will accept me. No amount of ice cream can make me smile. I can’t even enjoy a movie. I am just sad during this time of the year. I have so many what ifs for us. I may never believe in marriage or I may hate all the man in the world but it will never change the fact that I miss you so much. There are days that I want to hate and blame you on how miserable I am but that’s too immature. I have to live with what I have chosen in life. I hope you are at peace now. Happy Father’s Day.